I knew God had more for me... but I was stuck.

Life didn’t ease me into survival mode — it dropped me straight into the trenches.

Premature twins. Hospital stays. Oxygen cords trailing behind not one baby, but two. Sleepless nights blurred into early mornings, and exhaustion became my baseline. Life was hard in ways I never imagined, and just when I felt like I could come up for air, another wave would crash over me and pull me back under.

I was sad. Lost. Confused. Utterly exhausted.

Some nights, I passed my husband in the hallway as we took turns tending to one boy or the other — exchanging tired glances instead of words. And in the quiet moments, when the house should’ve felt peaceful, I found myself asking the question I was almost afraid to voice: Is this really the life God has for me?

From the trenches to the roller coaster

Year after year, life felt like a roller coaster I couldn’t get off.

There were seasons that were truly beautiful. The boys were healthy. Chase and I reconnected. Laughter returned. It felt like maybe — finally — the hardest days were behind us.

And then another wave would come.

Another setback. Another hospital stay. Another moment that left me grappling for answers I couldn’t find on my own. Answers only God could give.

Each time, it felt like starting over. Each time, survival mode tightened its grip just a little more.

The Breaking Point

It wasn’t a hospital stay that finally broke me.

It was spilled red juice on the schoolroom carpet.

Something so small — yet it unleashed everything I’d been holding together for years. No words came. Panic swelled in my chest. I couldn’t breathe. I grabbed my keys and my running shoes, told Chase I needed air, and for the first time… I drove away from my house.

I don’t remember the drive.

I just remember numbness. Tears rolling down my cheeks. My heart aching for answers.

When I pulled into my favorite running trail, I sat there for a moment, confused as to how I’d even gotten there. But I got out anyway, laced up my shoes, and started running.

THE SHIFT

The Bench by the River

It was fall. Cold. Rain drizzled down, and I hadn’t brought a coat.

I shoved my hands into my pockets and put my head down — a posture I knew well. Anytime life got hard, that’s what I did. Head down. Push through.

I ran for miles until my lungs burned and my body couldn’t go any farther. That’s when I saw it — a cold, hard, concrete bench at the bend of the river.

I sat down.

And for the first time, I let it all spill out.

No one to see. No one to judge. Just me and God.

That was the day everything changed.

Not on the outside… but on the inside.

My God Moment 

As I poured my heart out on that cold concrete bench, God met me there.

He listened.

And then, gently, He began to fill me back up with truth.

Truth about who I was — not just what I was surviving.
Truth about who He created me to be.
Truth about the plans He had for my life.
Truth about the process it would take to walk in them.

When I returned home later that afternoon, none of my circumstances had changed.

But I had.

From Surviving to Fullness

Day by day, I began to shift.

From survival mode to fullness.
From exhaustion to intention.
From reacting to being Spirit-led.

One step at a time. One day at a time.

I began aligning my life with the spiritual gifts, values, and passions God had placed inside me all along — ones that had been buried under years of simply trying to make it through the day.

Looking back now, I sometimes wish I had known then what I know now.

But that’s exactly why I created A Spirit-Led Reset.

My Invitation  

A Spirit-Led Reset was created for women just like you — women who love God, yet feel worn down, overwhelmed, and quietly wondering if there’s more than this constant grind.

My heart is to walk with you.
To help you.
To lead and guide you out of survival mode and into the Spirit-led life God designed for you.

You don’t have to stay where you are.
You don’t have to keep pushing with your head down.
There is another way — and we can take it together.

Listen to the podcast 

This podcast is for Christian women stuck in survival mode who want to go from lost and confused to clarity and abundance.

Through honest conversations, biblical truth, and practical guidance, you’ll learn how to realign your identity, renew your mind, reset your energy and schedule so you can live the abundant Spirit-led life God has for you—without hustle, pressure, or burnout.